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Taking a break guys, just while everything is so busy. 
TTYS xx
I really thought that Em would have taken Jack back, but she didn’t. In fact as the days went by she was becoming her own single ‘life of the party’ girl self again. And the boys sure were digging it. We were having so much fun, and in a way I was kind of glad I had my girl back again.
And then almost a week ago her Grandma passed away. She was just devastated. Her and her Grandma were really close (pretty sure her Grandma – or Celia, as everyone calls her – was quite the party girl herself back in the day). I could tell she was trying to be strong for her family, but she wasn’t doing a great job of it. Oh, my poor girl, I just wished that I could take away the pain. It wasn’t that long ago that her Grandpa died and then her and Jack breaking up and now this; she’s been through a hell of a lot this year.
The funeral was beautiful. And there was a lot of people. Celia knew everyone (or more like everyone knew Celia). She was a bit of a rock star back in her day I think. It was held outside, under a beautiful blue sky, on a slightly breezy day. There were coloured flowers everywhere, and not one person wore black. It was Celia to a tee. Emma looked lifeless that day, even after the funeral I could tell her mind was elsewhere. Nonetheless, all the people that mattered to her and her family were there.
Since she’s been a lot better, though she’s definitely down in the dumps. I know she’s been hanging out with Jack quite a bit, just as friends from what I hear, and I think it’s been doing her a world of good. It just breaks my heart to see one of my closest friends so sad.
Celia Thatcher, Rest In Peace.
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I had coffee with Shane yesterday morning (for those of you who don’t know, he is my high school boyfriend). I ran into him whilst doing a little city shopping, so we decided to go to Gloria’s to catch up. I haven’t seen him for quite some time and like always we chatted and chatted the day away. He’s also at uni these days, after taking half a year off to travel. He’s studying Law, taking after his dad. Smarty pants. I get the feeling that he is starting to grow up, this boy. When I was with him way back in the day, when we were like 15-16, he was one of those hot shot guys who played footy and got drunk every weekend. He was, let me think, very up himself. But now, he just seems a lot more mature. He’s even got a girlfriend. He met her over in Europe on his trip and they kinda hit it off. And don’t worry, they aren’t long-commuting… Lucky for him she was also on holiday with her family, from over here too. So they’ve been together for I think five months Shane said. But yeah, it was really good to the see the guy, see that he’s happy and going good.
After seeing Shane, I finally got shopping. I went to The Body Shop and bought some bath salts and some nice soaps. Then I bought a couple of new candles from this really nice home boutique. They were rather expensive, but they were vanilla scented and had these nice patterns crawling up the side of them.
When I got home I did some study, all that boring shit, and completed some homework. The Taj came over and we had some good quality… bonding time. Hahaha. x) Then I set up the candles in my bathroom and filled the bath with nice hot water and added a bath salt. I know it was meant to be ‘me time’, but just relaxing in the bath with Taj (top turvy, haha) was just as good, if not better. Though it was a tad squishy. LMAO.
So that was my day yesterday. And today I was at uni all day. Actually, I had lunch with Taj (we commuted together too), and I kind of wanted him bad. Hahahaha. I don’t know what has come over me! Shhhhh. Well, before this turns into some explicit blog, I’m going. I have an essay to write out anyway. Hahaha.
I’m officially on my week off uni. Oh thankyou. 
Last night I went to a charity dinner with Dad and Melinda. It was actually really nice to just spend some time with them. When I first met Melinda I was very wary, but as I got to know her and she started living with us I’ve grown to really like her. I feel like she is apart of the family now, not my Mum, goodness no, but I’m so comfortable around her. I reckon Dad is going to marry her. And I wouldn’t mind, not at all.
Not much is happening at the moment with Taj and I. We had a talk and sorted things out, so everything is all good between us, but you know how sometimes even after you sort stuff out, you know there is still something not right? That’s what it’s like.
Yeah, still haven’t spoken to/seen Taj. After thinking about it constantly yesterday and last night and this morning, I get where he’s coming from. However, I can’t stop myself from thinking: what if it was the other way around? If Emma had cheated on Jack and I knew? Would I have told Taj? Yes, yes I would have, because he is my boyfriend, my best friend and I trust him. Then another thought came into my head: if he had’ve told me, would I have told Emma before Jack had? Probably. So, now that I’ve slept on it and it has filled my head for a good 24-hours, I have made a conclusion.
I shouldn’t be angry at Taj: he did exactly what he had to. Really, in the end, he was kind of protecting me. I feel terrible about walking away from him at the beach. This last week must have been horrible for him, to keep such a secret from me, from Emma.
Jack has been constantly calling Emma and sending her texts and even arriving at her house saying he’s sorry. And you know what, I believe him. I think he’s a decent guy who made a mistake, a very big mistake. I feel sorry for him. I think Emma is now at the stage where she’s acting like she doesn’t give a shit, when deep down I know she’s hurting every time he makes contact with her.
Oh yes, and I’m making a trip to The Body Shop today. Phaedra has inspired me to create some ‘me time’, and what better way to do it than a relaxing pamper night in.
