That Kate Girl

Oh, thank goodness I am home aye (I came early to escape the boredom and so I was home for the First Round Offers for University). New Zealand sucked, no offence. I spent the most of my time inside our Queenstown holiday house staring out into the town, the massive lake and the Remarkables (if you’ve been there, you’d never forget that view). It truly is an existit view and it still gets me everytime I go. It gave me a lot of thinking time as well, which was much needed (and I’ll explain that in a sec). Tony and Vivian were in Queenstown for the first couple of nights which was awesome (they are twins from America who are a year older than I am, and I’ve known them since I was little as their folks also have a holiday house next door to ours in Queenstown). While they were there we hit the town most nights, though it was pretty quiet compared to snow season. Oh yes, and I also went to Winnie’s, the best pizza restaurant ever! Yummmm. It was nice to spend some quality time with Dad. We went wine tasting, and of course Dad bought bottles of the best to send back home. I think he has an obsession with New Zealand wine! Ha-ha. I think it’s the first holiday we’ve been on that wasn’t actually for his business.

It sure is good to be back to the beach front home though. It’s been really hot here laterly, so I’ve been spending most of my time swimming in the pool. In fact, my hair has been totally sun bleached aye! Like, it’s usually light brown, but now it looks like a sandy blonde! I don’t actually mind it, I just hope I don’t geta ny of that natural regrowth shit. LOL.

So, I said I had a lot to think about in NZ. Well, that brings me back to the fashion show. Just after Christmas Emma, Taj, Nate and I were suppose to go to Melbourne for a fashion show complimentary of my Dad. It was going to be the perfect couple of nights. We were at the Domestic Airport waiting to board the flight when Emma got a call from her Mum saying that her Grandfather had just had a heart attack, which is absolutely horrible. Poor Emma was so devistated and obviously couldn’t go on the trip anymore. Her Grandfather passed away later that night, but she got to say goodbye. Then Nate decided he wanted to get some magazines for the trip and so did I so we left Taj and went to the store. We were picking out a few magazines when he randomly asked if it was going to be just ‘you and Taj, and me.’ I was like, ‘Yeahhh, is there something wrong?’ (I could sense that he was angry and uneasy). He ended up going off at me, telling me that he’d be the third person (and I thought Taj would have been the third person, considering) because Taj and I are always together and blah blah blah. It was totally random! I was like WTF aye. So then Nate ended up leaving and I was almost in tears. We’d never had a fight before and it really pissed me off when he tried to make me choose between my boyfriend and my best mate. I had no idea that he felt this way either, that he was actually really jealous. AHH! I went back to Taj, who had absolutely no idea what had just happened. It was really embarrassing telling him and I just burst into tears. Now that’s embarrassing in the middle of the airport! I didn’t end up going on the trip, but Taj still went to Melbourne as he had to pick up some surfboard part from his cousin who lives there.

It turned out alright, considering I got to be there for Emma. I know she was really close with her Grandfather, so you can imagine how devistated she was. I also went and visited Nate the next day, where we spoke and made up, but I could still sense the tension. I decided maybe it was best that I didn’t see Taj for a while. Unfortunately it was hard to dodge him at the New Years Eve beach party (which was pretty awesome considering Crystal and Paige set it up). Nate had gone off with some of his mates and I ran into Taj, where he wished me a happy new year and also asked how Nate and I were. I was about to tell him that we were going really good and how much I enjoyed being with him when Nate comes up to us and starts yelling again. Taj was trying to get him to calm down but it only made Nate more upset. He said that he really loved me more than any girl but that I couldn’t love him back because.. because I’m in-love with Taj. It was seriously the worst New Year’s I’ve ever had. I broke up with my boyfriend and didn’t even get that special kiss at midnight. I remember, Nate was walking away after he said it, and the coutdown was on, and Taj and I were just standing there, and I was just watching Nate walk away and everyone around us were kissing and celebrating, when all I wanted to do was go home and be by myself. It wasn’t that I was really upset about Nate, it was what he had said. I’d never ever looked at Taj in a way other than friends before, but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. I don’t know. I’m still confused about it. Taj leaves on his surf trip on Saturday, so hopefully I’ll get to talk to him before then.

Talking about a fricken soap opera! What a waste of fashion show tickets eh! I’d just gotten used to the idea of having a boyfriend, and before I knew it it was over. I guess in a way I knew it wouldn’t have worked out. He’s just not the boy for me ehh. For now, I have to figure out what is in my heart and not in my head. What do you guys think? Me and Taj? I don’t know… 

Talk to you soon! xoxo

Rest In Peace David Thatcher